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Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
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1:12 am - chap 10
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Chapter Ten: Dedication of Love After a while of kissing me he finally stop and looked in my eyes "I am sorry" he set back up, so that he was sitting on the couch and I sit beside him "I do love you though," he looked at me. "You mean everything to me, and I love you with all my heart" I blushed. "I want to be with you forever Ami" "I dont really know what love is, but know that I love being with you, and you make me so happy, and I always heard that is what love is...so, I love you too" I smiled and he took hand, and sqeezed it lightly and I put my hand on the back of his neck. Has we began to kiss again. Has we kissed he pressed harder on my hand and I pressed harder on his neck. By body temperature was rising and our kiss seemed to get more a more passionite. Until he finally picked me up and Carried me to my room and laid me down on my bed and set down beside it. I set up and looked at him. "What's wrong?" I asked, I wasnt sure what happend, or even if it was something I did. "I dont want to take avanitage of you, Your so special and I do love you Ami, I love you so much." He starried in my eyes and sweetly smiled, "I dont want to lose you, I want to be with you forever and I promise, Ami, I would do anything to make sure your safe, and happy. I would even give my life for you" I starred in his eyes and smiled at him. I was lost, my feelings were running wild, he was so sweet so wanderful, And I really didnt want to let him go either. "I love you, Zachary Niemeisi" He smiled back and we began to kiss again. He took off my shirt and his...then slowly kissed my neck down to my breast. I felt his bear flesh against mine. And it lead to more and more, has I gave him more then I ever thought I would give anyone "Marry me, Someday" Was the last thing he said to me for awhile..
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| Thursday, April 20th, 2006
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1:11 am - Chapter 8
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Chapter Eight: Over Hearing No such luck, I sleep clear through Sunday! and that isnt like me, that's something Mina or Serena would do, but not me. Now it is Monday afternoon about 3:15pm!. I only have an hour and 45 minutes of school left, and with Darien gone there is no way I could get there in time.I couldnt believe that I, Ami Munizo, missed school. I haven't missed school in six years.. I stood up and fell flat on my face. Then I heard a knock at the door. I tried to walk to it, but between my coughing, the knifes in my chest and my dizziness I couldnt make it...At least not anytime soon. "Ami, it's Zach!" He sounded upset and worried "Are you okay?" He must have heard it from Dar or someone else, maybe Lita, but what did they say? I know they wouldnt have told him the truth. Zach some how managed to get the soor unlocked and opened. I was leaning over the table, that was now on the floor due to my weight. And ofcourse I was on the floor now too. Zach shut and locked the door. And before I knew it picked me up off the floor and carried me to my room "What's wrong, Sweet Ami?" He laid me down on my bed, "I've head you never missed school before, even when your sick." He touched my farhead lighly and I became sleepy. He looked at my window, "Was that open last night?" I nodded, "Darien likes to leave the windows open at night" He frowned has he looked at me "I need to call my brother" He kissed my cheek before standing up"Rest, Ami, I'll be back soon, and I promise you'll be okay" He walked out into the hall and I could here him talking. "Brother, answer me, I need the antidote for Ami" "I know that, but her window was open and she doesnt live far from where it happend, Plus that girl blew it closer to her apartment in battle" "Can you bring it to me? I dont want to leave her here like this" "Thank you They'll pay for this" All I could hear was Zach's voice, no one else, and who as they? What was he talking about? He reenter my room and noticed my agua blue room and the sailor scout picture and items on the wall and on my dresser. "You a fan of the Sailor Scouts" He looked at me. "Not really" I thought about this, how can I be a fan, I am one, "I just collect memories," Opps...correction "I mean things that were given to me" I lied, but he just smiled. "Good He came and set on my bed. He held my hand and I felt safe again. He brushed some hair out of my eyes, and I feel asleep again. When I woke up Zachary was still laying nexted to me, asleep, and he was still holding my hand. I smiled has I laid my head on his cheast. It was odd, nonee of my friends stayed all night with me before. My friends didnt even call, that I know off. Ofcourse they know what's going on and are probably trying to find out what is wrong. A few hours later, Zach woke up. I just laid there slipping in and out of sleeping. "Wow, Morning Sweet Ami" I wiggled into his embarres, It felt so wonderful being held. "You feeling any better?" "Yes, I do, I feel great, Thank You, Zach" I smiled "A little weak but I do feel a lot better" He kissed my forehead, "It's 3:42am, Are we going to school?" Okay, has much has I liked the way he treated me, he was babying me a little to much, not saying that I minded, I actually kind of liked it. Which also scared me. What was happening to me? I was more then just content now. "I'm ahead, I think I'll stay home for two day" I set up and felt the icey cold air touch my body, and even though my powers involed ice...it was even to cold for me. So I laid back down, beside Zach, "But I'll get up and eat when it isnt this cold" "I'll cook you breakfeast, my treat" He smiled and got up and walked out of my bedroom, The cold air didnt even seem to faze him at all. I tried to go back to sleep, but I couldnt. So I soon, got up and put my rube on to keep me warm, and walked into the kitchen, where I smelled bacon and egg. And I actually saw Darien standing by the kitchen door. I can't believe he up this earlier. "I'll pay for breaking the lock on the door" Zach said, "I am sorry about that" "It's cool, has long has I get some of that food" Darien joked, "Hows Ami" "I am fine, Darien, I am doing a lot better" They both looked at me. "Aren't you sappost to be in bed?" Zach asked frowning "I wanted to leave my room" I smiled, "I didnt know you cooked" "Well, I try" He smiled back at me. And got three plates and put the food on them and we all went into the dinning room and enjoyed the meal. "Wow, this is good Zach." Darien said "But I gotta get going, Ami, I'll check in with your teachers for you" "Thank you Dar" I smiled has Darien left the apartment."Well, now what?" I asked and Zach just
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| Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
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1:10 am - Chapter 7
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Chapter Seven- Nemsis Family At 2am I woke up, fully rested and always fully healed, which was funny, cause i never gotten a chance to heal myself.yet. I looked around for Zach but he was no where to be found, but on the cafe table was a note. 'Sweet Ami, I am sorry, I couldn't stay, my brother, David, needed me. So i left has soon has Darien got home. please forgive me Love Zach' I smiled and set the note down. Thinking I was going to go to my room and go to bed but I was wrong. I hated being wrong "Ami, Negaverse attack" Darien was already trance formed into Tuzedo Mask, and I grouned. I didnt really want to fight now, I felt to good to be fighting. but it was my duty. "Mercury Star Power!" I said loudly with no emotion on my face. I was to happy to be fighting tonight. "My long brown hair that was normally to my mind back was now short and fit around my face, it also got darker with a blueish tent to it. Also my school uniform changed into my sailor unform. "Ready?" Tuxedo Mask asked "Not really.." I replied. By the time Tuxedo Mask and I arrived Sailor Mars annd Sailor Jupiter were already there. Artamas was probably trying to wake up Sailor Venus. Which is a every hard thing to do.. "Mercury Ice Storm Blast" I yelled and I felt the power surge through my hands and hit the monster. Sailor Venus arrived right when lightning busted across the sky and lite up the montain. Where we saw a group of people appear on the montain. At the was a man with light blond hair that came to his shoulders, and blue eyes. About a step below him was another man. with short dark brown hair and dark sapphire blue eyes. Both men where very well built Then about four step from the top was a skinny lady with green hair, and two steps below her was tall skinny red haired man. Then last, almost at the bottem of the montain, was four girls, slightly older then us. "We are the Nemsis family, I am Prince Diamond, and I am here to take back what is mine" The man at the top of the hill spoke. "This is my brother, Sapphire" He pointed to the man one step below him, "My half sister, Emerald," He was going in order of the way there were on the montain, "My cousin, Rubius, and his girls, Catsy, Bridy, Prisma and Avery." When his introduction was done a ball of dark black gas was formed in Prince Diamond's hands and he throw it down towards us. I run to catch it, but somewho I missed and it exploded right in frount of me I took a deep breath, and stopped breathing. The gas must have been poison.. hours later I woke up in my brother's arms, we were still at the park has far has I could tell. Everything was blurry and it was hard to make out anything. I stared coughing really heavy and hard, every cough I could fell it in my chest, like knifes poking me. And I could barley breath, I was scared to even try to talk, with how hard it was for me to breath. "Okay, Ami opened her eyes, I better take her home" Darien's voice seemed so far away, even though I was right in his arms. "Come on Ami, your to weak to walk" I could have told him that. I was prefectly content with staying right here. I heard the faint whispers of my friends, but i couldnt hear what they where saying. The ride home was alful. I felt sick has it is without Darien running, jumping and leaping to avoid the crowns seeing 'Tuxedo Mask' What seemed hours later he finally reached ouit apartment. Tomorrow it was Sunday, and he had to work to pay for the apartment. And he couldnt take me to the doctor because of me being Sailor Mercury, and that would be to hard to explain. So all he did, all he could do, was lay me on my bed and hope and pray I'd be alright. Whatever that stuff was I felt like I was dying, a slow
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| Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
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1:09 am - Chapter 6
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Chapter Six- Greg's Return 3 months later "I wasnt expecting my girlfriend to be with another guy while i was way" Greg walked in my apartment, and by the smell of it he brought Deana with him, or at least her prefume, "especially when my girlfriend is you, Ami" Zachary was helping me do the dishes "your mine and you belong to me!" Greg yelled. I never really seen Greg this mad before, and I didnt want to see it now. Greg grabbed my arm and jerk me closer to him and back into a wall. "Hey, Ami and I are friends. She is helping me in school," Zach spoke strongly and convendently, " And I thought I would help her clean up!" He pushed Greg into the wall, "How do you like to be thrown into the wall?" Zach's normally soft eyes looked hard and pure of hate. Zachary and I have became very good friends, but I wasnt sure I wanted him to do this for me. I felt peacful with him and way more relaxed...and I wasnt even sure why. But I did know I didn't want him getting hurt. And even though Greg doesn't look stronger then him, I know using the same power we use to fight evil. Greg might kill Zach. "I am not scared of you" Greg looked at Zach and I prayed that they wouldnt start fighting. I didnt want Zachary hurt and Greg was more then human. "Your nothing to me Zach" Greg reached behind his back, like he does before he gets his sword to attack one of the monsters. "Greg, Don't!" I yelled and ran between him and and Zach has Greg pulled out his sword and slashed my shoulder. Zach was stunned has I fell backwards into his arms, and Greg turned and walked out, slaming the door. I wanted to use my crystal to heal my shoulder but I couldnt because I didnt want Zach to know I was Sailor Mercury. It's been about 4 months since the last attack on earth, so it has been pretty quite. Other then Serena, she is kinda in denial, and avoids Rei, Lita, Mina and Darien, like the pleg. She wants to be a normal girl. So did the rest of us, but we knew our responiblities, and respected them. "Ami, you stupid girl!" Zach picked me up and carried me into the living room and lays on me down on the couch. "Quit a warrior you are" He look at me worried. "I'm okay, Zach, really.." I smiled sweetly to hind the pain from him. He toughted my forhead again and I started getting tired, and slowly feel asleep. I am not sure why everytime he touchs my forhead I get tired..and cant stay awake. I wish I understood.
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| Sunday, April 16th, 2006
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11:57 pm - Three Times
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I given you my heart three times But each time is almost the same Will I ever learn the pain you cause It's still ingraved in side my head
I doubt I'll ever stop loving you Caues even now I love you Why can't I be like you and just disappear nothing lingering in side no love or fear
First time was so fresh and new Something exciting and bold I wasn't scared of you then I believed in all you said
I took a chance at seeing you Giving up all I knew Then you gone just in a sec Never thought you'd return
Second time I let you in my heart I was still in love but weary of what you said I knew why you left before I was scared to tell you he was here
You said you wouldn't leave this time Things were different you were scared I believe you with all my heart But you still left again
The last time that you were mine I should have known it was all I lie Just like the first to time now I see It's not the demons it's just me
You were unfaithful and untrue but what hurts the most in all this time Was I seen it caming from far and wide But I just couldn't just stop loving you.
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| Saturday, April 15th, 2006
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2:55 am - Good To Bad
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Auguest 24, 2005 Darkness seems to regain in this place The suns lightslowing is dying As if never to be seen again People souls grow dark There hearts has cold has ice
No wonder so many have fallen away The evil has taken such a strong hold I seen it everywhere I turn
What bothers me the most where I use to see angels walk they no longer walk the ailes Fallen Angel's of Darkness & Death Taken over God's holy place
It breaks my heart to watch Good people turn Bad And my sacuary turn to hell
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| Friday, April 14th, 2006
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2:54 am - I seen
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May 17, 1999 I seen my love's look at me, with sadness in his eyes I seen the frightened look on his face, with no hope left inside I seen my friends and family, fighting a battle to hard for us win
I heard their voices call out my name, scared and tremble I heard my young ones cry, "mommy please don't die" I heard my enemies voice raise with laughter, As I slowly died.
I felt my best friend take my hand, as we began to fall I felt my friends cold hand, in that deep dark hole I felt my battle scars that day, the battle my father never fought.
But now I see is what used to be, This memory in my heart But now I hear my own cries, in stand of my loved ones, dear. But now I still fell is my best friends cold hand, holding tightly to mine.
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| Thursday, April 13th, 2006
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3:29 pm - Chapter Five- Sleepy Cherry Flavored
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The ride was very nice. I couldn't believe I was having such a nice time, just being with someone that I didn't know. Normally I was scared of people.
Zach parked his car "Let me walk you to your door" He gets out and grabs my book bag before I even had I chance to reacted, or even get out off the car.
"Alright, Thank you" His car was nice, way nicer then Dari, or most people. But what i liked more was the way he treated me. Like I was something special. Deep down I thought I was setting myself up to get hurt, but then again, I knew my destiny, or so I thought.
By the time we reached the 10th floor and got to my apartment he looked a little tired. I was use to the walk these stairs, but he wasnt. Maybe I did this out of kindness or just outta of my own feels, I am not really sure
"Would you like to come in? and have something to drink?" He set my book bag and my books down has he enters the hallway and I shut the door.
"Ofcourse, your the best company" He replied and I couldnt help but blush, "You look more beautiful when you blush" Which made my blushing even worse.
I turn away and walked into the kitchen and got come some cherry flavored water "Zach, What would you like to drink?"
"Whatever your getting" I poured him some cherry water, too and went into the living room and handed it to him.
"You might not like it, Zach" I sat down on the couch and he sat right beside me, and somehow I ended up in his arms.. I felt safe, really safe for the first time in my life. And I never wanted to let that go. I just wanted to stay in the moment forever.
He stroked my face and I became very sleepy. I set my glas down and fell into a deep sleep. A deep sleep, that no one could wake me from.
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| Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
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3:29 pm - Chapter Four- Surprise Invite
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I was prepared to walk home after I saw Zach and another girl Nanni talking. Surely it was some prunk or something. Zachary set by me in the last four classes and spent the last 4 hours by my side. Not that I really minded, but I don't believe he is actually caring about me.
I walked up to him to get my books and for the first time I wasn't scared of a guy (other the my step brother, Dar) but I was still nerves, I was more nerves with every step I took.
"Zach" I spoke softly, "Can I have my books?" He looked at me and his eyes seemed to soften. I thought I was going to melt but I didn't.
"No, I am taking you home, Sweet Ami" my eyes widened and the girl Nanni, glared at me, "Nanni was telling me there is a dance Friday. Should we go?"
"I dont go to dances" I sighed. I hate thoughs things..
"Ami is to much into being smart to go to any social event" Nanni reply was hayeful and cold, "She is to shy to go anywhere but the nerd places"
"Well, I guess I have no choice but to go with her" He smiles at me and my heart sank.
"You don't have too, Greg doesn't even do that"
"Ami, We're Friends, and I raither be with you then a lame dance" Deana walked up to us "So your stuck withh me" I nodded, I couldn't really agrue.
"Hey Nanni" Deana spoke, completely over looking me, "And you are?" She looks at Zach.
Deana wore her cheerleader uniform and looked prefect and sexy has normal. Her Brown hair curlied and not a strain was out of place
"Zachary, My brother and I are new" He actually should no interest in her.
"Nice, I'm Deana" She smiled, "Want to come over?" She asked him still overlooking me.
"Sorry Deana, I asked Ami to let me take her to Dinner" I looked at him confused, He never asked me that..
"oh" her red lips pouted slightly "Maybe another time" Then her and Nanni left.
"We are what?" I was really lost, I didnt know a ride home involed dinner, at least it normally doesn't.
"I knew that would get you Sweet Ami," He gentle touched my face "Let's go find my brother and tell him, then we'll leave."
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3:28 pm - Chapter Three- A Romanic Meeting
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Well, my first four class of school is over, and now it is lunch, before the last four classes of the day. I have seen Zachary twice today, so that means I'll have him in all my afternoon classes. David, his brother, was in my Junior Calculas and Junior Chemistry Classes, So he must be a Junior or a Senior.
I am only freshman, but I study hard, and got good grade, and a high IQ and managed to get into a lot of hard classes. Which is good, cause I want to be a doctor someday.
I stared at my Medical Science book, and was doing my homework for first class. I was so busy I didnt even hear someone step behind me, or even see his reflection in the mirror, I never even noticed.
"I wasn't aware anyone come's up here. are you hinding out too?" His voice startled me, and I turned to face him, "Your that girl, with Ms. Lyda" I slightly blushed and looked at his lovely sapphire blue eyes. "I am Zachary Nemisi, but you can call me Zach" His hand reached for mine and before I relized it my hand was in his. "And you are?"
I finally spoke, "Ami Kai" He smiles and set down beside me, still holding my hand in his.
"Lovely, Why are you here Ms. Kai?" He squezed my hand lightly.
"My first name is Ami Kai," I looked at him and smiled sweetly, "And I am here to study, and releave myself from my dear friends, and brother"
"Well, Ami, I can see why one of you 'Dear Friends' would be bothersome to you. So Ms. Lyda said your boyfriend left for awhile" His Eyes where looking right into mine.
"Yes, Greg, is gone, My Queen is sending him to Aferica. Today is his last day here for a few months" Opps! Silvia will have my head for speaking her name to him.
"Well, I am sorry to hear that, Ami" He smiles at him, "Why arent you with him?"
My heart raced has his hold on my hand tightend, "Greg and My relationship isnt worth feel forced upon us. He has other girls, and I have my studies"
His eyes soften has if he was caring about me "And that doesnt bother you, Sweet Ami?" He starred in my eyes and it felt like her was looking in my soul.
"Not at all, I am deditacted to my work and school work, Greg is apart of that, yes, but mostly has part of the rules. He can break them, Guys rules don't matter, but Klan would lock us up if us girls break the rules" I dont know Why I am telling him all this.
He tilted his head "Your lying Ami, about not caring, Do you love him"
"Not even a little bit, we'd be just friends or maybe not even that by this point, if it wasnt for Klan, who force it upon us" I replied has he smiles at me.
"I believe you," I smiled back at him has my face felt flush "Dear Ami" He releast my hand, just has my brother come in the libery.
"Ami, I am going to go and hang out with some friends, I'll be home at 10, you ok with walking home, sis?" Dar stood there already to leave.
"I can take her" Zach stood up and was now facing Dar, "I'm Zach and I don't think it is right do a young lady to walk alone"
"I am Darren, and my sister is able to do what she wants"
"Okay Dar" I sighed "I'll see you aruond 10"
He nodded and left and I looked at Zach, "He's my step brother"
He nods "I know, Lyda, gave me the info on you and everyone else"
I laughed and he smiled at me "I'll take you home, your to special to walk" My fast turned red and I knew it. He was so sweet but his flattery was like a players, and I knew I had to beware.
"I have nothing to give you in return" I replied, and he frowned.
"Not even you being my friend" Wow, he was good.
"I can do that" I spoke before I could even think clearly. I stood and gathered my things.
"What is your nexted class?" He asked
"American English 3-4" I replied aware that the was his nexted class.
" Mine too, I'll walk with you" I smiled at him has he took my books"
"Thank you Zach"
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| Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
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3:21 pm - Chapter Two- Lyda's Info
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"Morning Ami" A very tall bruttnet walked up to me, her hazel eyes shining. I knew right a way that there has to me another boy, there is always another guy. "There are two new guys at our school" That was just like Lyda, Marika too, but Marka went to a different school. So Lyda had to pick up the slack of the boy-craziness while away from Marika. It's amazing we actually manage to get anything done.
I opened my locker just to pit my jacket in it then I shut it and looked at one of my best friends, Lyda, Guy werent my thing, but they are hers. I was prefectly content with the way my life is. But I knew what was to come, a long lecture of boy talk, especially about the new guys.
"FYI, you have 6 out of your 8 classes with Zachary, and 2 classes with David. There brothers" She kept talking and I just looked right passed her to the tall musicalar man, with the most beautiful sapphire blue eyes I have ever seen he stood right behind her and I tried not to blush or laugh.
"Wow, Ms. Lyda, you've done your reseach on my brother and I" I smiled at him, and tried to think of where I seen him before. I couldn't place it, it was like a foggy memory, but I knew I knew him.
"Zachary! Hi! This is Ami Kai, I was filling her in on, uh" Lyda paused..
"Me and My Brother? Maybe?" Zachary spoke, running his hands through his dark brown hair, and I laughed quitly
Lyda grabbed my arm, "Okay, Time to go, Come on Ami" She ran off and I looked back at him. Still wondering were I knew him from.
"Lyda, don't you think he looks familar?" I could have sworn he looked familar, Maybe from my past or something like that.
"Ami, all hot guys look the same" I shurged, I guess that is why to her most guys look like her ex. And I wouldnt know, I never paid much attention to guys before, but I couldn't seem to now think about him.
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| Monday, April 10th, 2006
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3:19 pm - Chapter One- An Odd Goodbye
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I woke up 4:30am, which is normally of late for me. Wondering if my step brother Darren was up yet. Most likely not, he is never up on time. Getting up, I felt the cold air on my back. Dar likes leaving the windows open, but it makes my room freezing. I sometimes wish he wouldn't leave them open all night.
I went into the bathroom and got a shower, trying to clean up my cuts that always manage to open sometime in the night. Also trying to warm my freezing body, but I knew I couldn't stay in the shower forever and it is still cold out there. Then went and got my school uniform on.
Most people didn't like the school uniforms, but I didn't mind them, I don't have to pick out a new out fit every day before school starts, plus I blend in better that way. And I loved to blend in, saves from some of headache of trying to find the "cool thing" to wear.
I brushed my wet hair. Then at 5:30am I went to get Dar up, I knew this was going to be a hard thing to do, but somehow he is never late for class. I guess it is a typical thing for a senior, but I am only a freshman and I hate being late for class.
I walked into his room, turned on the lights and throw a towel at him "It's 5:30am! It's time you get up and get ready for school" And all he did was roll over "Come on Darren, I don't want to be late for school" I sighed standing at the door way. I can't believe him.
"You never want to be on time or late, just early" He moaned and got up. I heard the door knock, so went to answer it and left Darren to get ready for school.
I opened the door and it was Greg, my boyfriend,"Hey come in" I stepped back had he entered and stood in the hallway of my apartment. I guess I felt weird having a boyfriend. Has Greg and I got older are relationship was more forced, or destiny then love. But it never really bothered me, I had my school work and he had, whatever he done.
"Why don't we not go to school today?" He had me corned up against the wall, "we can stay here just you and me"
I starred at him, momentarily before I spoke, "I cant miss any school with the girls on over time, my grades are slipping" I know missing school wouldn't make a difference, I was head 3 to eight chapters in every one of my classes, but that was my excuse for everything. I couldn't stand missing school, unless it was saving the world.
"Ami" Greg warp his arms around me tightly "Today is my last day here for a while, let's spend it together" He moved to kiss me and I turned my head.
"Then you should spend it at school, and say goodbye to our friends" He let me go, and look like he was mad. He got mad often, but you wouldn't know it by just looking at him. "Greg, I can't miss school, not with Ushia on strike"
"Whatever you want, Ami" He glared at me and it sent shivers down my spine. "But I am not going to school" He then smiled at me, has if nothing happened "I better go, I love you, Ami" Then he kisses me for the last time in three months, and I was for relieved.
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| Sunday, April 9th, 2006
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1:53 am - Broken Hearted
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April 12, 2004 I watched My love leave when he said he never would and told me he'd never hurt me He Left in a heartbeart, Slowly Letting my heart Break
I feel in love with him so easily His arms wrapped around me The song he play for me still in my memory 'I will always love you' lingers in my heart I never knew always was so sort
I never knew a love this strong What I feel for him just wont die I never knew a pain like this My blood spills slowly just like the breaking of my heart
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| Saturday, April 8th, 2006
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12:00 am - I fear the Love
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September 17, 2005 I don't understand this pain How can I love you When you broke my heart so much Why are you the only thing I need.
They say time heals the pain But the longer I go without you The Wounds keep getting deeper The blood spills more then ever now
I wanted to give you the world Cause you were my world But all I couldn't give you was my heart Sadly, that doesn't seem to be enough.
I want to hate you for all you've done I want to be able to walk away But something inside me keeps pulling me back I fear the love I feel for you
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| Friday, April 7th, 2006
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12:02 am - untiled
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The house was full of laughter Our home had seen no tears Our friend were always near Love was all around us
We prepared for the Last Battle Truly we would win We always won before this Never lost a thing
I laughed in tell I cried, On that our last holiday My Love's arms warped tightly around me I never thought that would die
I could smell the scent of cinnimin hanging sweetly in the air I can taste the apple snider Along with my love's kiss lingers there I hear the laugher of my children that I never want to lose I see My love looking at me with passion rarely felt.
I remember the last battle When fell with my friend in that dark whole, before I knew it I was this child. Trapped in side a little girls soul.
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| Thursday, April 6th, 2006
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11:58 pm - Deeper
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September 16, 2005 I watch the blood spill from my arm The cut deeper then ever before I hope I don't wake up tomorrow Cause I don't want this pain no more
These love for you that's inside me Is carved into my heart It's so strong it's unbearble Why can't I just depart?
I would have give up my life for you Would have given you all I had Just to be your only love But I guess that's just to bad
You lied to me and broke my heart Now I want nothing more to die But that's impossible though For who I am in side
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| Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
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12:02 am - Again And Again
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You told me that you loved me why did you leave me to cry in the cold you swore this time was different why does that line seem so old
You told me I was the only one who could make you feel that way you told me that you cared about me so why didnt you stay
All the nights I laid there talking to you alone in the dark in my bed now I finally realize were just messing with my head
Love is such a powerful word a word people often misuse something they take for granted something they beat and abuse
My wounds run deep inside me there's blood all over the place I think I’ve really lost it this time Im ashamed to show my face
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| Saturday, April 1st, 2006
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11:50 pm - I rememeber
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The house was full of laughter Our home had seen no tears Our friend were always near Love was all around us
We prepared for the Last Battle Surely we would win We always won before this Never lost a thing
I laughed in tell I cried, On that our last holiday My Love's arms warped around me tightly I thought that would last forever
I could smell the scent of cinnimin hanging sweetly in the air I can taste the apple snider Along with my love's kiss lingers there
I hear the laugher of my child that I never want to lose I see My love looking at me with passion rarely felt.
I remember the last battle When fell with my friend in that dark whole, before I knew it I was this child. Trapped in side a little girls soul.
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